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secretdiaryofacutter:

The other night I was Skyping with one of my best friends. She lives in Holland and I live in America, so we don’t get to talk often. I trust her so much, and every time we talk I just feel so loved. She’s amazing.

I was talking to her about cutting, and started telling her about how I sometimes take pictures of my self-harm instead of writing about it, or in addition to writing about it. I don’t normally show people the pictures, but I sent her a few. She had been sharing her screen with me because I’d been watching her draw something, so I saw when she opened the files.

She opened this picture, kept it on the screen for a few seconds, closed it, and opened it again in Photoshop. I watched, confused, thinking it had been an accident.

I watched quietly while she erased every line of blood, every scar, every cut from my body. I started recording the screen without thinking- I needed to be able to watch it again. I knew I would need to feel that sense of… relief. That there was someone in my life who knew the extent of me and could still see through to something beautiful.

I wanted to share this with you because I think it’s important. If you feel anything close to how I felt when I saw this, I’m happy. Because you should know that it’s possible to be loved, underneath the pain and the scars and the blood. We are all beautiful.

You’re beautiful, and above all, you are not alone.

((Jenna, I want to do this for you, because you are beautiful, smart, creative, caring, lovable, sweet, and one of the best friends I have. It makes my heart break when I see your scars. Please, you shouldn’t feel the need to do that.))

This made me want to start crying and my eyes watered a bit. This is truly beautiful and so are you OP. No one is a failure, you just get really good at learning and growing as a person. Life is hard and it will be hard for a long while, but it does get better. You might need to change a lot of your circumstances and a lot of things about yourself or how you view yourself/the world, but you will be better for it and for your experiences. The last picture is what I want to say to all of me followers, “I love you. You are beautiful; you are NOT a failure”. Just keep trying, keep striving. Everyday you’re a different person from the day you were before. And remember, no matter what, I am always here for you. If you need someone to talk to, just reach out and I’ll be there, but only when you’re ready.

(via melissazard)